A Story of Love.

Many days in my teen years, I had wondered what I could do just to have someone and a love in my life. I met this guy online 6 years ago and we met there on that little website called myspace. You may remember it.. He was a whiteboy but a mexican in blood. He had the prettiest green eyes and the most precious smile. We will call him " Charming". Charming contacted me on myspace and we had talked ever since. We would talk from morning till night and everyday. I never knew why but I always felt I could feel him through the phone. When I fell asleep at night I could feel him next to me.. Being a girl,, I had my insecurities, but being a girl with average genetics, I felt I wanted to look better before Charming and I actually met. I planned to have 4 opperations in which i'd google all day. Id be there for him as much as I could on the phone. It is now six years later. When I first met him, I can truly say he was everything and more then what I thought he would be. I think my biggest regret was waiting to meet him but I knew I wasn't ready. I wanted to be a perfect doll for him. I realize now that I should have not cared what I looked like and just met him for who I was. I met Charming In april 3 years ago. Standing outside my house I see this tall, and handsome young guy running up to me with his arms open. It was total disbeief that I was actually meeting him since I had made him wait forever to meet me. I put on my best face and said here I am!! Love me or hate me is how I felt. But in my heart I said, I hope he loves me because I had always been there on the phone and never left him. I always felt this sense of longing to want to take care of him.. So i promised myself, I would meet him and I would never leave him there wondering why this girl he talked and seemed to love before first sight, to never meet him. While I knew him in person I did get my surgeries and I was so happy to be able to get pretty for him. I realize now this is one of the biggest mistakes in my life. I wanted to change who I was on the outside so I could feel like the person I felt on the inside. Not just looking better for myself, I wanted to look great for the person I cared alot about.